If you wonder why I put day's it's because it's the 10th day I have written in my blog for example any who...
I feel like now is a perfect time to be typing away. I have a midterm tomorrow but although I should be freaking out, chewing my fingernails or any other thing your suppose to do the night before a midterm I'm not. For the first time in a long time I'm actually not freaking out. I've been practicing and working on not being a procrastinator and that's one of my flaws. I have organized my time so that I can do the things I want but still get my work done. I get distracted to easily. I see cool youtube videos, or start texting or eating.
I'm taking a break from studying. I need that and I feel like it helps me to take a little bit of a break and then go back.
Right now I am on the verge of being sweaty if you get what I mean. It's a weird feeling and wish it would go away. It probably didn't help that I had 2 long sleeve shirts on before this. You see, when I get up in the morning I'm usually very cold which is normal. Plus it is fall but right now there is no way I need those 2 layers of clothing on top of me.
Plus I've been itchy lately. Everywhere. I think I'm paranoid and thinking of it which is making me itchy? If that makes any sense. If It weren't for that I probably would of been asleep a lot earlier then i had intended on falling asleep.
I feel like this will be a longer then usual blog but I haven't written in here for a while.
I wish I could write in a journal but with this I feel like I can get out more. When I write after a while I have to stop. My hand starts to get sore and my writing doesn't look as nice as it did at the beginning and when I write I like my things to look nice. Like my notes. If I don't like my notes or think there to sloppy I do them again. Good thing paper is recyclable!
Well I'm going to get back to my studies. I haven't really gotten the oppurtunity to talk to the boyfriend today. I've been busy with school and stuff. I guess I could be texting him right now but I like the option of when I get back to my work and I don't want to text him when I'm not sure when I'm getting back to my studies. It makes sense to me!
Back to studying I go. Well first with a snack. An apple that's what I'll have! I haven't been eating the healthiest since school started and it's about time I started!
Toot a loos!
- A -
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Monday, October 3, 2011
Day 9
This is how my day started. I was getting ready to go to school. I had planned to meet up with toga winner girl (see day 7 blog) .We were going to go around in the morning try to get students to vote for our school. But toga girl had gotten sick that morning. While I was getting ready boyfriend had text-ed me asking how Teacup was doing. Teacup was one of the male kittens that was smaller then the others. They were born the day after my birthday which had made them 6 weeks exactly yesterday. I would call him sitter because he would sit and not play fight with the other kittens. That's when we new something wasn't right. He was the smallest out of the litter and when we brought food out the other kittens devoured it while he just sat back and watched. I gave him some meat and he ate that fast.So I had assumed he was fine and just didn't like the cat food. I brought them all back to the barn.
So when my boyfriend text-ed me I went out immediately to see if he was okay. He wasn't . I brought him in and put some lamps on to warm him up. I bought kitten formula and fed him through what looked like a needle but wasn't. All morning I heard everyone say he wasn't going to make it. I hated it. I don't like hearing that. I try to stay positive. It was so sad to see him like he was. He wouldn't even stand up. I couldn't touch him. No one else had the time to try and save it so there went me trying to study. I tried but couldn't concentrate. It got to the point where I just couldn't handle it anymore. My mom kept an eye on him while she watched the stand from her rocking chair while I went up stairs. I'm going to shower and relax. I cried. It was such an awful day that I did. Tomorrow I'll be over it and that's usually how I am about death, I cry it all out. Talk about that thing who died. All the good things and then say shit happens and move on. It does though when you think about it. Everything happens for a reason and it made sense that he wasn't going to live. I saw it coming but a part of me feels like my mom didn't put the effort in to save him. I couldn't touch it though. I put on gloves. I just couldn't it was just to much for me. So yes if I didn't say it yet Teacup did die.
I now sit with one of the others. It just sucks because he or she looks just like Tea cup. They all do. 5 black kittens Midnight ( the mom) had.
I'll miss you tea cup. <3
This is not how I had planned my day, and that's what sucks about life. Well I guess depending how you look at it. You never know what your day will bring. It could be awful or great. So now I'm going to take a shower, clear my mind and get back to studying.
So when my boyfriend text-ed me I went out immediately to see if he was okay. He wasn't . I brought him in and put some lamps on to warm him up. I bought kitten formula and fed him through what looked like a needle but wasn't. All morning I heard everyone say he wasn't going to make it. I hated it. I don't like hearing that. I try to stay positive. It was so sad to see him like he was. He wouldn't even stand up. I couldn't touch him. No one else had the time to try and save it so there went me trying to study. I tried but couldn't concentrate. It got to the point where I just couldn't handle it anymore. My mom kept an eye on him while she watched the stand from her rocking chair while I went up stairs. I'm going to shower and relax. I cried. It was such an awful day that I did. Tomorrow I'll be over it and that's usually how I am about death, I cry it all out. Talk about that thing who died. All the good things and then say shit happens and move on. It does though when you think about it. Everything happens for a reason and it made sense that he wasn't going to live. I saw it coming but a part of me feels like my mom didn't put the effort in to save him. I couldn't touch it though. I put on gloves. I just couldn't it was just to much for me. So yes if I didn't say it yet Teacup did die.
I now sit with one of the others. It just sucks because he or she looks just like Tea cup. They all do. 5 black kittens Midnight ( the mom) had.
I'll miss you tea cup. <3
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Day 8
Day 2 of another busy day. Out of this whole day I had time to write on my tumblr account and then go to my sisters high school for the award ceremony. She won the math award and am so proud of her since i know I could of never would of gotten that in high school and didn't.
Now I'm just catching up on my Glee that I missed. I love that show!
I'm loving school so far. Staying on task and getting my work and doing my best to read my chapters but it's hard. Especially since I work on the weekends and see the boyfriend as well. I don't like the fact of cutting him out of my life because of school and I won't. I know when I go on field placement it will be hard on us but we can make it through it :)
- Well I'm going back to Glee and spider solitare. I always have to be doing two things at once like when watching t.v. I know I'm weird.
- A-
Now I'm just catching up on my Glee that I missed. I love that show!
I'm loving school so far. Staying on task and getting my work and doing my best to read my chapters but it's hard. Especially since I work on the weekends and see the boyfriend as well. I don't like the fact of cutting him out of my life because of school and I won't. I know when I go on field placement it will be hard on us but we can make it through it :)
- Well I'm going back to Glee and spider solitare. I always have to be doing two things at once like when watching t.v. I know I'm weird.
- A-
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Day 7
Today's the day that it actually hit me that it's fall. I know I always think it once September 1st hits but it actually did, and I'd actually love fall if it'd stop raining! I want to see all of the leafs turning colours and on the ground, I want that beautiful fall weather with no precipitation, I hope it comes back soon.
Today is me and boyfriends 1 month <3 and we can't see each other since he works midnights so when I finish school for the day, he's at work, that's okay because he has the whole afternoon planned for us on Saturday after I finish work :)
Now yesterday, I had 3 of my friends sleep over after school. There's this girl whose in my program and I knew she was from far away but I thought her friends in the class would of shown her around. So at the recent pub, I think I told you about it, where my one friend won best toga? Well she was a little tipsy and came sitting down with us, and we ended up hanging out the whole night pretty much. I feel like it was the alcohol that gave her the confidence to hang out with us because she was always one of the quiet girls in class.
So I wanted to show her the county, we hoped on the expressway and I forgot to get off of it, landing us totally far from our destination and we ended up lost, except forks (it's what our class calls her cause she's from this small town that's out in no where and she's like foreign to our area) new where we are which I thought was funny, so we ended up back where we needed to be but the place we all wanted so badly to go was closed but I am so hosting another sleep over because I am not letting her leave our area with out visiting it so we went to this bird sanctuary where there was Canadian geese. My one friend was the only braved one and went into the area where they were which we were allowed to we just weren't as brave enough so eventually we all went in but they started following us, brave friend and toga winner ended up getting away from us but me and forks were stuck and I was freaking out. All I remember saying was "Honestly" over and over again and wanted to jump the fence. It was also raining so I had my umbrella and Forks had brave friends leather jacket so we used those two items for protection getting away from them, when I put the umbrella in front of me they didn't even care or try to attack, we got out and never wanted to go back in again. We also got eaten alive from the mosquito's which I don't ever remember mosquito's ever being out during fall, not to mention it was raining but they didn't care but all my bug bites are massive and always warm, I hope it's not West Nile , a disease carried by mosquito's, there crazy like they must be a different kind from the ones in the summer time because I never got reactions like this. Then we went to brave girls house she lived near there but on our way my gas light went on telling me I needed to get gas soon and were out in the middle of no where. We made it to a gas station before I ran out of gas and then went to brave girls house. After we went to a little Chinese restaurant for supper and then my place.
We visited the kittens that my stray cat had and decided to bring them all in my room.Only problem was one decided to crawl through one of the wholes in the material I had that covered my box spring matress under my bed. I tried to get it out but couldn't so brave girl and forks lifted it up while toga winner held on to the other 4 kittens. I ended up having to cut open the sheet and get it out of there. The kitten is fine but I'm never letting my kittens go under my mattress again!
Well sorry this one was a longer read, this is nothing new for me though, something interesting or crazy is always happening to my life. Never boring that's for sure!
- A -
Today is me and boyfriends 1 month <3 and we can't see each other since he works midnights so when I finish school for the day, he's at work, that's okay because he has the whole afternoon planned for us on Saturday after I finish work :)
Now yesterday, I had 3 of my friends sleep over after school. There's this girl whose in my program and I knew she was from far away but I thought her friends in the class would of shown her around. So at the recent pub, I think I told you about it, where my one friend won best toga? Well she was a little tipsy and came sitting down with us, and we ended up hanging out the whole night pretty much. I feel like it was the alcohol that gave her the confidence to hang out with us because she was always one of the quiet girls in class.
So I wanted to show her the county, we hoped on the expressway and I forgot to get off of it, landing us totally far from our destination and we ended up lost, except forks (it's what our class calls her cause she's from this small town that's out in no where and she's like foreign to our area) new where we are which I thought was funny, so we ended up back where we needed to be but the place we all wanted so badly to go was closed but I am so hosting another sleep over because I am not letting her leave our area with out visiting it so we went to this bird sanctuary where there was Canadian geese. My one friend was the only braved one and went into the area where they were which we were allowed to we just weren't as brave enough so eventually we all went in but they started following us, brave friend and toga winner ended up getting away from us but me and forks were stuck and I was freaking out. All I remember saying was "Honestly" over and over again and wanted to jump the fence. It was also raining so I had my umbrella and Forks had brave friends leather jacket so we used those two items for protection getting away from them, when I put the umbrella in front of me they didn't even care or try to attack, we got out and never wanted to go back in again. We also got eaten alive from the mosquito's which I don't ever remember mosquito's ever being out during fall, not to mention it was raining but they didn't care but all my bug bites are massive and always warm, I hope it's not West Nile , a disease carried by mosquito's, there crazy like they must be a different kind from the ones in the summer time because I never got reactions like this. Then we went to brave girls house she lived near there but on our way my gas light went on telling me I needed to get gas soon and were out in the middle of no where. We made it to a gas station before I ran out of gas and then went to brave girls house. After we went to a little Chinese restaurant for supper and then my place.
We visited the kittens that my stray cat had and decided to bring them all in my room.Only problem was one decided to crawl through one of the wholes in the material I had that covered my box spring matress under my bed. I tried to get it out but couldn't so brave girl and forks lifted it up while toga winner held on to the other 4 kittens. I ended up having to cut open the sheet and get it out of there. The kitten is fine but I'm never letting my kittens go under my mattress again!
Well sorry this one was a longer read, this is nothing new for me though, something interesting or crazy is always happening to my life. Never boring that's for sure!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Day 6
Usually I don't do a blog in the morning, I wait until my day is done but I can't sleep and don't have the energy to do anything you see...
Stupid me fixed my alarm clock last night and set my alarm as if I was going to school early this morning. It's Monday, I never go to school on Monday's so I turned my alarm clock and go to bed. I tried for an hour and couldn't fall back asleep. It's now raining and storming so I for sure can't fall asleep. I'm not even hungry to get breakfast which is odd because it's like the first thing I do when I get up, well that and pee. Someone motivate me to do something. Maybe I'll organize the junk that's in my craft room. My sisters are gone to school and my my parents are up. There always up at this time.
So it's 8:38 am and I got up at 7 and went to bed at 10:30 pm last night and I know I got at least 8 hours of sleep but if I can get my 10 or close to it I'm happy. That's what they say, 8 - 10 hours of sleep. It's just when I get waken up and it's not by myself doing it I'm tired. If you get what I mean? I would be up by now probably but Instead I've been up at 7, tossing and turning to try and fall at sleep. I looked at my alarm clock and it was 7:59am so I got up.
I guess I'm starting my day earlier then expected :)
- A -
Stupid me fixed my alarm clock last night and set my alarm as if I was going to school early this morning. It's Monday, I never go to school on Monday's so I turned my alarm clock and go to bed. I tried for an hour and couldn't fall back asleep. It's now raining and storming so I for sure can't fall asleep. I'm not even hungry to get breakfast which is odd because it's like the first thing I do when I get up, well that and pee. Someone motivate me to do something. Maybe I'll organize the junk that's in my craft room. My sisters are gone to school and my my parents are up. There always up at this time.
So it's 8:38 am and I got up at 7 and went to bed at 10:30 pm last night and I know I got at least 8 hours of sleep but if I can get my 10 or close to it I'm happy. That's what they say, 8 - 10 hours of sleep. It's just when I get waken up and it's not by myself doing it I'm tired. If you get what I mean? I would be up by now probably but Instead I've been up at 7, tossing and turning to try and fall at sleep. I looked at my alarm clock and it was 7:59am so I got up.
I guess I'm starting my day earlier then expected :)
- A -
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Day 5
Today went by so fast ! I can't believe it's already 8pm. I worked this morning then got ready to go see a hockey game with a friend. She had one 2 tickets for having the best toga at our pub night. To be honest, some other girl should of won and if it were up to the audience she probably would of. Thing is she went out and bought hers which HELLO! The whole point of a toga party is to make one out of a bed sheet. Doesn't everyone know this? But me and my friend are pretty close with the Student Representative Council and they knew how much we've been DYING to go to our local hockey game. I had never been but she did once back when she was like 8 but doesn't remember. We wanted to go in September before exams and lots of assignments started consuming our lives but didn't have the money so the president said her name and that's how she won. Part of me wished she would of won fair and square but at the same time I'm so thankful and happy that they did this for us. They know how much we love our school and love being a part of it and I feel like this was a way for them to give back to us. Now my only question is... what made them decide to chose her over me? Just out of curiosity which also got me thinking, what if they do this again at the Halloween pub night? Because they know how excited I am for this night so I can show off my amazing costume or at least I think it's pretty cool :) Only a few people know and I could really use top prize which is $500. Ya $500 freaking dollars! Well I'm going to go back to cleaning. Bring my dirty clothes down and wash them. Oh ya fun stuff I know ;)
Well toot a loo's :)
- A -
Well toot a loo's :)
- A -
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Day 4
Oh wow, what a crazy past few days, yesterday I wrote this :
It turned out to be a beautiful day, at first it was rainy, and cold. But now as I type this, I see the sun shining through and it's wonderful. :) I'm watching Jersey shore and yes this show is stupid, the fact that it seems like all they do is apply lots of self tanner and just like to have one night stands and party, they still have good things in it. Boyfriend picked me up today and we had hot chocolate together. We probably hung out for about 30 minutes but it was something. I'm hoping we can see each other on Sunday night when he gets back. I was watching a movie where this couple was lying in bed and I was jealous, I wanted that. As I'm older I want more privacy. Especially that I have a boyfriend now. I want to be alone and with him , like I wish I had my own house. lol I just don't feel like a kid any more and I want to be out on my own. I can't and it was just be impossible right now lol like I'm still in school but I don't know at times I feel like that.
I have a busy weekend ahead of me, nothing newday 4. I'm constantly doing something. If I'm not hanging out with him I'm at school or doing homework or cleaning or working. Something. Sometimes I wish I could just pause life and do more things but I can't. I just find there's never enough hours in the day but I guess I'd rather be busy, then doing nothing at all. Well it's back to reading and looking up information for my assignment.
Toot a loo's :)
- A -
I didn't have internet so I typed it out on my computer. Since Thursday morning I've been gone from home, sleeping at residence, where students of the school pay to live there. Not every student lives there but those who chose to or live far away do. A friend of mine whose in my class lives there, I went to my first toga party the Thursday night and had fun:) Then Friday class got cancelled but of course I was up early, I can never sleep well at friends houses, its like it's because it's not my bed my body won't let me sleep. We had things to do at the school so we went then today was our field trip. We went to the Scrap box, it's a place where business's drop off random stuff they don't want and we fill up bags and pay $6.50 for anything we can fit in our bag. Then we go to Olive Garden. We don't have one where I live (we went to the United States of America to Ann Arbour, Michigan) and it's probably my favourite restaurant. I love there endless supply of bread sticks and salad but there salad had olives and hot peppers in it for some reason. I don't like either of them so didn't eat it. I ordered chicken alfredo fettuccine ..my favourite food in the whole entire world! On the way home we were so crowded with stuff but had to of course sing on the way home, singing the songs that our professor taught to us in class and then started singing old disney songs from the classic Disney movies most of us grew up watching like the song "Part of this world" from the movie The little Mermaid. It was great, we laughed and were just all having a great time.
Well I can't believe it's 6:00pm already. Going to finish putting my things away, do some laundry, brush my teeth and get into my pj's because I'm tired. Then work on some homework and watch a movie with my sister and mom.
- Bye!
- A -
It turned out to be a beautiful day, at first it was rainy, and cold. But now as I type this, I see the sun shining through and it's wonderful. :) I'm watching Jersey shore and yes this show is stupid, the fact that it seems like all they do is apply lots of self tanner and just like to have one night stands and party, they still have good things in it. Boyfriend picked me up today and we had hot chocolate together. We probably hung out for about 30 minutes but it was something. I'm hoping we can see each other on Sunday night when he gets back. I was watching a movie where this couple was lying in bed and I was jealous, I wanted that. As I'm older I want more privacy. Especially that I have a boyfriend now. I want to be alone and with him , like I wish I had my own house. lol I just don't feel like a kid any more and I want to be out on my own. I can't and it was just be impossible right now lol like I'm still in school but I don't know at times I feel like that.
I have a busy weekend ahead of me, nothing newday 4. I'm constantly doing something. If I'm not hanging out with him I'm at school or doing homework or cleaning or working. Something. Sometimes I wish I could just pause life and do more things but I can't. I just find there's never enough hours in the day but I guess I'd rather be busy, then doing nothing at all. Well it's back to reading and looking up information for my assignment.
Toot a loo's :)
- A -
I didn't have internet so I typed it out on my computer. Since Thursday morning I've been gone from home, sleeping at residence, where students of the school pay to live there. Not every student lives there but those who chose to or live far away do. A friend of mine whose in my class lives there, I went to my first toga party the Thursday night and had fun:) Then Friday class got cancelled but of course I was up early, I can never sleep well at friends houses, its like it's because it's not my bed my body won't let me sleep. We had things to do at the school so we went then today was our field trip. We went to the Scrap box, it's a place where business's drop off random stuff they don't want and we fill up bags and pay $6.50 for anything we can fit in our bag. Then we go to Olive Garden. We don't have one where I live (we went to the United States of America to Ann Arbour, Michigan) and it's probably my favourite restaurant. I love there endless supply of bread sticks and salad but there salad had olives and hot peppers in it for some reason. I don't like either of them so didn't eat it. I ordered chicken alfredo fettuccine ..my favourite food in the whole entire world! On the way home we were so crowded with stuff but had to of course sing on the way home, singing the songs that our professor taught to us in class and then started singing old disney songs from the classic Disney movies most of us grew up watching like the song "Part of this world" from the movie The little Mermaid. It was great, we laughed and were just all having a great time.
Well I can't believe it's 6:00pm already. Going to finish putting my things away, do some laundry, brush my teeth and get into my pj's because I'm tired. Then work on some homework and watch a movie with my sister and mom.
- Bye!
- A -
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)